I feel ‘ill-esque’ which is a term that fits perfectly for the strange things that are going on in my stomach, head and behind the eyes. It’s like, I’m not sick, but if I don’t rest properly I could be. You know what I’m talking about. I’m thinking this has come on from a combination of tough workouts (followed by not enough rest), hard working days (pays-the-bills), hot days and hotter sun (it’s 28 degrees C at the moment and it’s almost 7 pm) and as for the eyes thing — staring at my PC.
As I told you earlier this week? I think it was this week anyway, forgive me if I’m wrong, I’ve been juggling and as the days have worn on, its become increasingly difficult as I also attempt to add tightrope walking to my act. I’m tired! Who isn’t right? Still, when you’re tired you always feel like no one else can possibly be as tired as you are in that moment, that’s exactly how I feel right now. Sure, you might be tired, but yours is trivial compared to mine. I digress.
I didn’t write or edit anything at all besides all things to do with ‘pays-the-bills’ yesterday. However, edit-buddy has been hard at work and sent me back my short for further perusal (the one I want to submit to competition) and we’ve had a bit of a back and forth that has allowed me to finally determine which pov I’m going to have one of my stories in. No, not the dark fantasy, that was decided a few weeks back. It’s another I was putting off and being lazy about, that was written completely in first person – over 50k words of outline (:S) and I’d been sitting on it wondering what to do next. Then some months back I had the ‘brilliant’ notion that I might prefer it in another pov (the toss up was between first and third). After much fretting, I decided to rework it in third, because I believe it will be more appealing like that. Honestly, I’d written it on the heels of another story that was very dear to me and if I’m totally truthful, I think I got a little caught up in the feel of that one and tried to somehow recreate it with this new main character. I’ve realised now that the third person gives her way more room to manoeuvre and spread her wings. It will be tedious, I’m aware, as it always feels so strange reworking a pov when the other is just a few lines away, but as I said in another post — greatness before laziness (or something to that effect).
My decision to rework and finish this story means that I’ll put the current YA fantasy on the back-burner and instead work on, let’s call it ‘the do-over’ and the dark fantasy simultaneously. It makes more sense to me because the do-over was nearly finished anyway and the latter is a pretty smooth and exciting ride so far.
But J.R. aren’t you worried about forgetting things?
I’m not remotely worried about losing ideas or anything else for the new YA. Of course if anything comes to me I’ll jot it down and either way, I have a pretty clear view of where I see that story headed. Pausing won’t be a negative thing, if anything it’ll be in the story’s favour, as it will get all my attention soon enough.
On that note, I’m folding my fingers into fists and moving away from the computer until later, otherwise I won’t rest, I won’t close my eyes, I won’t do anything but write or try to write and although that’s bliss, I have to consider health. Otherwise, a couple hours away could turn into days of not being able to do anything at all, which just won’t do.
I hope the remainder of the week is good to you all!